I live with crazy people.

im so sick of people just changing there minds on me all the fucking time. GOD . i hate that my mom never listens to me . she never cares what i have to say. it pisses the FUCK out of me . she will never understand me. she has been sad that she won't get that family vacation that she wants because people in my family can only stand each other for so long. we will never be that perfect little family she wants so she needs to just hop right over her little river of tears and GET THE FUCK OVER IT. apparently non of her other perfect little children she had ever rebelled as much as me. WELL EXCUSES THE FUCK OUT OF ME. sorry I'm not the perfect little son you gave birth to,! maybe if you didn't want a challenge you shouldn't have gotten me. there is never a compromise, all i ever hear is " if you can't handle it just move out anna!" god I'm so fucking tired of hearing that. one of these days I'm just going to move the fuck out and never talk to my fucking mom again. she says that isn't what she wants but that is what she is pushing me too. she wants me to move out on " good" terms. but that only means doing what ever the fuck  she wants me to do and going to church and being a "good person" and all that other shit. maybe that isn't what i want. SHE NEVER FUCKNG LISTENS! i honestly try do the right thing but it always back fires on me. it pisses the hell out of me. I'm so fucking done trying to be this good person for her and just getting shit on. CONSTANTLY. nothing good ever comes from doing the right thing by her. cause even if i do the right thing it still isn't enough because i won't have the " right" attitude. because they tell me i can't go out i am supposed to go to my friends and say " sorry i can't go out with you because i respect my parents to much." HAHAHAHAHAH FUCKING JOKES! I'm so so so done. the other night i had to sit there and listen to her talk about how much she wanted me gone and how I'm the ultimate manipulator . well i learned it from the master. OH and they always tell me that if i was rational i wouldn't be thinking so crazy. i don't understand. I'm not crazy. they always tell me I'm crazy and i hate it. i am so sick of being told I'm crazy when I'm not. it does make you question your self.
anyways I'm done now.