I live with crazy people.

im so sick of people just changing there minds on me all the fucking time. GOD . i hate that my mom never listens to me . she never cares what i have to say. it pisses the FUCK out of me . she will never understand me. she has been sad that she won't get that family vacation that she wants because people in my family can only stand each other for so long. we will never be that perfect little family she wants so she needs to just hop right over her little river of tears and GET THE FUCK OVER IT. apparently non of her other perfect little children she had ever rebelled as much as me. WELL EXCUSES THE FUCK OUT OF ME. sorry I'm not the perfect little son you gave birth to,! maybe if you didn't want a challenge you shouldn't have gotten me. there is never a compromise, all i ever hear is " if you can't handle it just move out anna!" god I'm so fucking tired of hearing that. one of these days I'm just going to move the fuck out and never talk to my fucking mom again. she says that isn't what she wants but that is what she is pushing me too. she wants me to move out on " good" terms. but that only means doing what ever the fuck  she wants me to do and going to church and being a "good person" and all that other shit. maybe that isn't what i want. SHE NEVER FUCKNG LISTENS! i honestly try do the right thing but it always back fires on me. it pisses the hell out of me. I'm so fucking done trying to be this good person for her and just getting shit on. CONSTANTLY. nothing good ever comes from doing the right thing by her. cause even if i do the right thing it still isn't enough because i won't have the " right" attitude. because they tell me i can't go out i am supposed to go to my friends and say " sorry i can't go out with you because i respect my parents to much." HAHAHAHAHAH FUCKING JOKES! I'm so so so done. the other night i had to sit there and listen to her talk about how much she wanted me gone and how I'm the ultimate manipulator . well i learned it from the master. OH and they always tell me that if i was rational i wouldn't be thinking so crazy. i don't understand. I'm not crazy. they always tell me I'm crazy and i hate it. i am so sick of being told I'm crazy when I'm not. it does make you question your self.
anyways I'm done now.

make up/ hair haul once again!!

so i just got paid and of course i went across the street to ULTA. i am in LOVE with that store! these are just some things that i got there! 

So all over youtube i have been seeing this Macadamia mask! i have wanted to try it for a realllllly long time and i finally just bought a little sample for 4$ as ULTA. i thought that was pretty reasonable for as much that is in there. so i will try it tomorrow and let you know how it is :)

So this mascara is AMAZING. it must have just come over to the west coast cause i have been looking for this for around 3 weeks and i haven't been able to find it any where but i just started seeing it in drug stores! it was only 5.99 at ULTA. and let me tell you! I AM IN LOVE!!!

 

so i have wanted to a real concealer  for a really long time as well as an eye primer and i finally found both for a pretty reasonable price! it was only 12.00 and i am already in love! finally i found what i have been looking for! 

So i bought these things today! i have always wanted to try these masks! they are supper cheap too! i found them at the drug store and they where 4 for 5$ so i had to get four haha

i am IN LOVE!!! i am sure i am going to spend lots more money on these things! haha love them! 

such a scary face but it was such a pretty color! 

my beautiful family!

 

These are some of my most treasured memories! i love these sooo much! they are all so beautiful! i love my family! 

The Most Amazing Day of My Summer.

Yesterday was one of the most amazing days not only of my summer but of my life. I met my little birth sister for what I'm going to call the first time (i saw her twice before when she was a baby but never got to spend time with her.) we sat and we talked for what seamed like for ever. She is so beautiful and i have loved her since the day she was born and i love her even more now! I can't even explain How much yesterday meant to me.

For around 6 years i had been waiting for that day when i would be able to hug her, talk to her, be at total peace about the family she was in. yesterday was more than i could have ever asked for. I am sooooooooo Incredibly thankful for her mom to let me have the chance to hang out with her and her family! 

     

I wish i could know how it all happened. it was all so natural. she came over and then we just started talking. it was like talking to a mini me. we have so much in common and she is soooo similar to me too! the point of all of our families to get together was to take some senior pictures. but the talk that we had the hugs she gave me the smile on her face the way she said i love you meant more to me than anything . it was like when i left i felt like i was a little bit more filled. i can not wait to have more of these special times with her and her family! 

 

after we took pictures at the beach for a couple hours we went out to lunch and she told me she "called sitting next to me!" she called me her sister and told me how much she loved me! we really are so similar. just being with her and watching her was the best. i know that may sound slightly creepy but its not :) 

 BEST DAY EVER! 

sleepless in seattle: coffee style!

Recently i have not been able to sleep a whole lot at night! I think it is because of my new medication that i recently started taking for my depression and anxiety. It is really helping with my anxiety and depression but it keeps me up all night! You know that feeling you get when your laying in bed and your brain is so tired but your body won't let you sleep? Well welcome to my life ha ha 

Coffee has become my new addiction! I bought my self a reusable cup and a Starbucks card to support my habit! I got to Starbucks card and the cup from a Starbucks near me for only $11.95 for the cup and i put 15$ on my card! I figured if i was going to start drinking coffee or tea on a regular basis i would at least try and be a little bit more greener about it, that is why i bought the cup! Oh and i don't know if this is for everywhere in the country but at least in seattle if you buy a drink before a certain time you can get a thing that is called a "treat receipt" and after two you can get any grande drink for just 2$ ! such a good deal! 

How true is this! ha ha i loved this so much! but remember to drink a lot of water if you are going to be drinking coffee through out the day as well. Even if you have tea too! I hope you are doing amazing and know you are loved beyond belief! 

-Anna

my very first haul!

so recently i did some shopping and have picked up some make up things over the past week or so ! these are some of the things that i found!

I found all these at the drug store. i spent 19.46 total! 

this is just what i got today! 

NYX lip Gloss in the color sugar pie. its a supper pretty nudeish pinky color. its also really soft and its the first nudeish lip color I've ever gotten and i love it so far.  and it smells sooo good ! it smells like vanilla! it looks only slightly brown but its defiantly more of a blushy skin tone color. (does that make sense?) and its about $6.00

So i have been seeing this thing called Baby Lips all over Tumblr, Instagram pics, and even a few twitter post. I wanted to try what everyone was talking about and OH MY GOD let me tell you! its soooo amazing, its so soft, and it lasts for a long time. i am in love. i will never go back to using anything else. i think that this was totally worth the $4.49 i spent on it. I stand by this 100%.

So i was in need of some new mascara and I'm the kinda girl where if it is bright and it is big I'm gonna at least look at it ! i wanted something that was going to make my lashes look thick yet a little bit longer (Pretty much every girls dream haha) but i tried it today and so far its pretty good! its strange but i don't like supper fresh mascara, it feels to watery and doesn't seam to stick to my lashes very well but so far so good with this one! . it is pretty thick but hopefully it will get a little bit thicker with time and everything. i love the case or what ever its called. and i want to say this was about $7.50 but I'm not totally sure. i know it wasn't more than $8.00

These are some other things that i have bought over the past couple days! 

(not all from the drug store)

so this is my first MAC eye shadow EVER . I love it so much! it is almost the perfect color. Its a nice bronzy brown color. Its in the shade HONESTY. it was only 15.50 i think (Got it from mace's) . i actually thought that was pretty inexpensive. i use this color almost every day. I used to have a lot darker make up and i still do sometimes when i go out. but i try to go for a more bronzy natural nude color.

so because its summer i don't really like to use foundation. i tried for the first time this year a tinted moisturizer. so far so good, although it doesn't go on supper easily it looks fine if you put a powder over it. i really do want to get a more matt finish foundation for the fall though. this has some shimmer to it which makes it look like your may be a tad bit shinny. but i like to use a matt powder over it anyway as so that doesn't really matter. it kinda looks like it has more of a glow anyways :) i think it was around 8.99 (found it at ulta)

so this is the powder i was talking about above. its the FIT ME POWDER from maybelline. its a supper nice powder. its very matt and i love it! i havnt had a powder in a really long time. i love how matt this makes me look. (i think i got this at fredmeyer. i don't know how much it was though)

so i recently have thrown out all my old nail polish and i wanted to start over and fresh. i don't think that you can really tell how pretty the Mint Sorbet is but oh my goodness let me tell you. i love it. it is by far my favorite summer color. i could ware this all year round.i think that they where around 3.99 each (got them at rite aid). and they are pretty good. they don't really chip at all!